Update

Hey all,

I am doing better. What an absolutely insane day Monday was, huh? I want you to know that when those thoughts come I do not entertain them. They come and I immediately start fighting them. I am doing much better, but I am left to wonder if it is again time to try another medication.
-shrug- this is the process. Try. Try. Try. I have faith and hope that I will one day find something that really works for me. But for now it's mind over matter.
Are some of you laughing? I would be, if I were you :) Mind over matter doesn't always apply to depression and anxiety. In fact, that's one of the popular beliefs that I'm trying to kill. Sure, there are things that you can practice, thought processes and other things but many times those things aren't enough. Who knows, huh? For now I'm just doing my best and dealing with the days as they come.
My anxiety has gone down, I'm doing really well with mastering it. I just have to wonder again, if this is what's it's supposed to be like? Is this as good as it's going to get with medication? If it is, then I need to know because I'll have to solidify that idea in my head and then knuckle down and live the best that I can with my circumstances. Which is better than I'm doing now. I'm doing well, but I think I could be doing better.

Gah, it's gloomy outside. Sick.

;)