Still

Painfully truthful:

I could sure use a lift for my own hopeless heart..

I wish I could find a better way to remove all the filth that fills me up sometimes.

I want someone with me always.

I wish everyday were sunny and warm. I wouldn't take it for granted. I would relish every moment, I really would.

I wish Kendall was still my best friend.

I'm waiting for someone who really cares about me.

Sometimes I want a "good reason" to yell at someone..sometimes I feel like looking for a fight. I felt like that today.
But I would never. Not intentionally. Not pre-meditatingly so. Yes, I just made that word up.

I wish I didn't feel upset that Callie is still good friends with him. I wish I didn't feel alienated, cut-off and like an awful person because of it.

I hope, that despite myself...

At this moment...my own hope is just a glimmer. But it's still there.

I want to quit my job instead of having to try and fix the problems I'm having with my manager and working twice as hard as I already feel I do to prove to someone (who doesn't believe) that I'm more than worth anything having there.

I hope school isn't always such a thorn in my side. Not the learning...I love learning. But the technical, financial, administrative stuff.

I'd like to come across more shiny/sparkly things.

I wish people would stop pointing out how skinny I am and telling me they've noticed that I've lost weight.


Hum the tune to More Holiness Give Me and Have I Done Any Good in the World Today?

Night