Lost Post

I wrote this post on November 28, 2010 and just found it in my drafts. I'd like to have it included with this blog.


"And He Began to Be Very Heavy"

"Depression rages on. I count myself blessed that's it's only moderate depression, but depression in any form is hard and painful. I wish the world better understood how depression feels and that you can't "just snap out of it" like so many people think.

Perhaps they would be more supportive of us if they knew that the Savior of the World has experienced severe depression?

Mark 14:33-35 says:
And he taketh with him Peter and James and John, and began to be sore amazed, and to be very heavy; And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch. And he went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him.

The footnote for "sore" is awestruck, astonished, at how very heavy (footnote depressed, dejected, in anguish) he became. So much was his sorrow that he felt it unto death. I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that only those who have had moderate to severe depression knows the power of that statement. Some here with us on earth have unfortunately chosen death over feeling that heaviness.

My dear friends, my point is this: Jesus Christ knows what depression feels like. He understands far more than any being that has ever lived on the Earth. He felt it for himself plus everyone else's. He knows what it feels like to want relief so badly that you lay on the floor hoping to find it there, only to realize that the floor isn't even low enough to abate your feelings.

He knows the anguish that goes on inside your head when you know what is good but your mind and body cannot follow.

He knows what it feels like to not want to leave your house, even at the expense of others just not understanding.

He knows the feeling of wanting to hit yourself in the head with a book to try and stop thinking.

Yes, He knows. Even unto death.

But he went through that so that he could help you get through it. He alone can lift that suffering that comes from depression. And now he lives. He lives. And so can you. You can live through depression. You can and should chose life.

He is there with you. Of course he has his arms around you, understanding your pain perfectly and he offered everything in order to succor you through depression. Hold on. Hold on to the Savior."


This was interesting for me to read. Because it only got harder after this. But those verses of scripture were so comforting to me through this whole experience with depression; that it was recorded in the scriptures that he felt depressed, dejected and in anguish. Obviously, at the time he bearing the entire weight of the worlds he had created, so one can only imagine how severe his depression was at the time.

-sigh- I love him you guys. I love him so much. I'm so grateful for how perfectly he has taken care of me and how he continues to take care of me. He is real. He does live. He is your Savior.